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Married mum of 2 - just came out

Discussion in 'Lesbian' started by BrassMonkey, May 17, 2019 at 1:21 PM.  |  Print Topic

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    Hello all,
    I'm 50, married for 20 years, 2 teenage children and just came out to my family. After the shock, husband is relieved and happy to know we can both move on, kids have accepted it - almost embraced it really. We're splitting up and moving apart.
    I have supportive wider family which is lovely, but I am still really struggling with the massive changes that are happening. I feel euphoric one second at being brave enough to come out (although that happy feeling has worn off over the course of last few months) and most of the time just desperately unhappy at the damage caused to everyone around me and I'm not coping. Everyone is so kind and understanding but I just feel exhausted and such a burden on everyone.
    Anyone in the same situation who can relate to this?
     
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    First - Welcome to a and wonderful place, where no one will judge you.

    I am 63 and I started the process of accepting myself and coming out a year ago.

    I am non binary and my presentation to my wife sucked but after a few weeks of calm talking things got better.

    She worries I will look better than her and people will want to start dating me. (no I am not transition but I started working out and lost 80 pounds).

    I have a dear friend who loved me and stayed by my side as I learned to love and accept myself. She held me as I cried as I hated myself so bad.

    As this year has gone along, I keep getting stronger.

    You need to take a deep breath and realize you have done a wonderful thing and are a wonderful person.

    If you wish you can message me.

    Peace and I am glad you came out to be you.
     
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    Hey, Not exactly the same, but some similarities. I'm also a married mother of 2, slightly younger at 44, (son near 19 and daughter just turned 17). Unlike you, I've been openly and actively bisexual since my teens (well, gradually more open, more so after I came out to my sister at 17 and parents at 18). My husband has known I am bi since we started dating and has always been very accepting and encouraging of me pursuing my sexuality. I didn't come out to my children until over a year ago and they were really great about it (to be fair, they kind of guessed it already). So that's similar to you, they really have embraced it and it's emboldened them in their own sexual journeys. Unlike you, I am still with my husband and do not foresee us breaking up at this stage. I know it can be a bit scary. it sure was for me coming out to my parents, less so with my husband (but still a bit nerve wracking), and definitely with my children (although I tried to raise them to be accepting, you just never know, right?). I've definitely gotten bolder over the years and, as a rule, don't really think twice about telling others I'm bi (not that I go around broadcasting it, but I won't deny it if the subject comes up). Anyway, I'm curious, maybe I missed it, you come out as bi or lesbian? Feel free to message me anytime. :) 
     
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    Thanks for responding and sharing. It’s great that patience and love has paid off xx
     
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    You are very welcome and so true! :)  xoxoxoxo
     
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    Thanks for sharing - I like your boldness. So you’re married to a man and you also have relationships with women? So like an open relationship then?

    I used the word gay to husband and kids. The label suits my husband, who has been starved of physical love for years and said everything clicked into place when I told him. He’s not questioned it and he sees it as justification/explanation for the marriage ending, and his road to freedom to hopefully find love elsewhere.

    My kids though - they asked whether gay or bi. To be honest, I’ve been attracted to both men and women in the past, but now can’t imagine a physical relationship with a man.

    Im not sure I like labels - I’m not sure they’re useful really - but I wonder if that’s just because I prefer being labelled gay rather than bi? Perhaps I feel it helps my situation ... as in easier to explain I’m gay therefore can’t stay married; rather than I’m bi, but fallen in love with a woman, and therefore can’t stay married.

    See I prefer the first - less blame / choice I suppose!
     
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    You are very welcome! Yes, I'm married to a man and sexually open, so with women as well as him. I know what you mean and in your circumstances, likely the best option for both you and him. Great your kids are so open to it all, as were mine. :)  In my case, I am a lesbian leaning bisexual. So much the same, just sticking with bi because I do still love my husband and I do still enjoy sexual relations with men, but far prefer it with other women. I will say I prefer relationships with men, only because there's less drama overall, but when it comes to being sexually intimate; women clearly win out! lol So you have fallen in love with a woman now then? She the first you've been with?
     
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    Yes my first woman, this is all new to me.
    Feel like I’m back to the first grade. I’m also her first as well. Both married actually - and both rarely intimate with our husbands - so I guess it’s how we began to realise we may have something in common.

    I’m kind of fascinated and in awe of society that this is all ok these days. I’m assuming my upbringing is the reason I surpressed feelings for so long. Love that the next generation are so ok with everything - we must have done a good job bringing them up!
     
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    That's lovely. Is she a mother as well? I've connected with women like that over the years, too. My bestie (and main girl) is a case like that, at least as far as being a married mother and never had any sexual relations with other girls until she met me (though she's still with her husband and is still sexual with him). My older sister has some similarities to that, though she was with girls when younger and now that she's divorced, she and an old girlfriend of hers now live together (both divorced mothers). It was really quite wonderful when she said she needed to be free and explore this on her own (she and her gf are still saying they're bi, but they are like a couple of hormonal teenagers with each other and the though of men doesn't even enter into their minds as far as I can tell! lol). So have you been intimate with your gf as yet?
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    Sorry if my last question was too personal. Don't feel you must answer it or you can answer it in a direct message to me if you prefer. :) 
     
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    No she’s not a mother. So no kids in the mix there, though dynamics of her relationship with her husband is very different - and I don’t think they’ll split up, as her husband is accepting and not ready to move on yet. Who knows - maybe we’ll end up like your sister!
    We’ve had a couple of opportunities to be intimate - it’s not easy given our lives. Again, back to first grade / first base I’m digging the hormonal teenager vibe at 50. But actually I guess I’m in no hurry - exhausted from the daily grind of life / work / balancing family etc and we’ll find time once home life changes and we change living arrnagements
     
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    Very nice her husband is so open, much like mine I guess! Is she your age, younger, older? I appreciate you're starting from scratch. Trying new things, experimenting, etc. Been through that, except a long time ago! lol Maybe closer to my best friend as far as that goes, as it was very new and eye opening for her at first. I really had to take the lead with her and only do what she felt comfortable with at first. It was fairly tentative at first, but in time she was much like me and very open and eager to try things. I'd say much the same has happened with my sister and her gf (though they did have experience in the past, but not to the same level). :) 
     
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    Thank you to both as it is good to see people happy after a long week.

    More important - thank you both for being open and sharing.

    May the happiness continue and love grow.
     
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    My gf is a bit younger than me. Yeah we’ll get there!
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    Having a safe space is a wonderful thing - I’ve been floundering for a while - I’ll start to breathe again now I know you’re here!
     
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    Wonderful! Yes, my bestie is about 5 years younger than me, not that it matters. Been with older, younger, and same age over the years. :)  Age is a number (well, within reason and law. ;)  lol),
     

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