Hey everyone its great having good people like you to share my feelings to. Im transgender male but female inside. Im living a fake life because i havnt transitioned yet. I feel like there are so many expectations with society to be normal to be like everybody else. I have never felt part of society, i feel so distant from everyone. I came out to my parents and they could barely look me in the eyes and got to the point when i ran away to the other side of the uk. I came back because i caused them more harm than good but now they just swept who i am to the side and just ignoring it, pretending that i am going to live a happy normal life. I am at the point that i am just in the bottle. The only thing that is going to get me out is leaving to country away from my parents and to transition medically. I quit my job and leaving in two weeks. Its just sad the expectations of being normal in life. I just find it so hard to deal with dysphoria and normal people don't understand what its like.