I asked a friend to think of names she might think would fit me. I was thinking about naming an RPG character one of those names and see how it worked. Because I hadn't thought of changing my name but, meh, might as well try. This is how it actually worked, We were in the middle of a conversation and I came back from doing stuff er something and saw she had posted some names. The first one she posted had such a strong emotional reaction that I lost eyesight. My heart stopped. It was the strongest emotional reaction I have ever had from reading a single word. The rest of them were just words. They didn't apply. I don't know any Taylors ( I almost typed "other than me" ) that would be that important. I don't know if I can put a face to a single Taylor which makes it unlikely that the word applies to a person in my past that is important. Now I am struggling to apply "Tim" the same way I struggled to apply "cis" when I first realized I was agender. Is it possible my friend stumbled upon my name and revealed it to me? Is it possible that my name is "Taylor" and not "Tim"? I'm wondering if anyone here has a deadname or has a friend with one if you have seen this reaction before when people encountered their actual name.